wow. 3 posts in one hour. it's not so obvious that i've got nothing to do, is it?

dives are always great chances to detach oneself from the cruel realities of life. if i could only live each day as if i were away on a dive trip, then all is solved. nothing else will matter.

the deep blue.... take me away with you...

it's 2:51 am and im still up. i have a paper to finish, which isn't even half done. it's due in about 11 hours... and im here typing away for livejournal. how surreal can this get! and of course, im trying to keep awake just so i could finish that paper later. yeah, later.. not now..

so... this is life... i haven't had extra time to think and reflect for the past 3 weeks.. ive been caught up in org life, and i must say i should be thankful. i've got my hands full, and will continue to have them so at least for the next 5 more weeks. that should be good. so everything has been a blessing in disguise for me. thank You!

i am exhausted.. deeply stressed.. yet.. again.. what am i doing?!?

oh well.. physical and emotional and mental exhaustion... drained... just hope my body can keep up. and mind too.. that's important.. very important..

all right.. i have to stop.. my eyelids and threatening to fall oh so slowly... lulling me to sleep.. lest i lose time for this paper....

oh yes we do. we do think about those things. don't think that we don't. but rightfully so, i believe it is more understandable that we think of those things. for in your case, you can act however you want, anytime even.. not so for us. there lies the BIG difference. sometimes, you'd think we could be so carefree, even careless... like exactly that, that we could care less. but you thought wrong. there are far more facets to us than you've ever seen, or than we'd ever let you see. you just have to look at us from different angles. at least it will be of some help. but if not, then i guess all's fair. we fail over and over again to fathom you either. if you only know the difficulty and maybe even the agony in deciphering the codes and mysteries enveloping you.. then you'd know how profoundly we think too...

i've run out of things to write about.. or to be more exact, i've gotten tired of putting down my feelings in words.. besides, no more to speak of anyway. dead tired.... zonked out...

new motto = college life is basically about org life.

in everything, you come to a point when you really have to stop looking through rose-colored glasses. 
sooner or later. because until such time, you'll only be fooling yourself. 
there's no escaping the snap back to reality. because it's what LIFE's about. 


How can I convince you, what you see is real
Who am I to blame you, for doubting what you feel
I was always reaching, you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you

I was living for a dream, loving for the moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look in to your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while

Can we last forever, do we fall apart
At times it's so confusing, the questions of the heart
You followed me through changes, and patiently you'ld wait
'Till I came to my senses, through some miracle of faith

Now the mile stretched out behind me loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie with victims of the game
Then good luck, it finally stopped like lightning from the blue
Every highway's leading me back to you

Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done
The search is come forsaken, our destinies are wound
So if you ever loved me, show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain, the man I really am

I was living for a dream, loving for the moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Then I touched your hand
I can hear you whisper, the search is over
Love was right before my eyes

current mood: what now?

i just spent 9 hours at the mall. (wow... good luck sa parking fee...) see, that's what happens if im left alone at home. i was soo bored i just had to get out.
i had lunch with a friend and orgmate... a really long lunch. pizza hut bistro's not so bad actually! then another friend and orgmate caught up with us. we then watched basic instinct 2. manipulation written all over. haha! sharon stone's hot! for a 40+ year old! goodness gracious! and her outfits were so sophisticated, so chic... waaaoow.. 
after which we had dinner at dimsum and dumplings.. 
and then came a really long, relaxing talk... nothing serious.. just to unwind, to untangle the things bothering us, to escape momentarily the harsh realities of life.. these times i love... i miss... i wish i could have times like these more often.. like the 3 of us.. nobody had wanted to leave just yet.. even when it came time to part ways, there was still hesitancy to finally turn back and walk away... because id be coming home to loneliness.. and who wants that.. if only we could have stayed a little longer.. until we witness the breaking of another day, the rising of the morning star.. but good things never last... *sigh*